With or Without You

when are you posting chapter 15???

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 20:30:46 -0400

By the end of the week.

when are you updating?

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 20:30:37 -0400

Hopefully soon, a lot going on recently. I don’t really have time.

I need to take a small personal break after seeing all these pictures of blonde Josh playing sports.

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:23:12 -0400

I need to take a small personal break after seeing all these pictures of blonde Josh playing sports.

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Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:21:48 -0400

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Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:21:03 -0400

sixxyhutch: Josh with a FOOTBALL….I’m a goner for sure!!!

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:20:12 -0400

sixxyhutch:

Josh with a FOOTBALL….I’m a goner for sure!!!

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Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:19:13 -0400

Are you writing more for With or Without You? That isn't the end right? Great chapter btw ... I personally can't understand how anyone could leave their child ... I try to fathom it out ... but can't see it.

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:18:42 -0400

There is one more chapter, sigh. I want to keep my first Josh fic short, but I have an idea brewing for another! Erin just has a lot of emotional problems. My stepsisters have never met their mother, because she pulled a stunt similar to what Erin is. So yes, it’s possible.

So I read all of your fanfic yesterday, and I need the next chapter!!!<3

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:17:28 -0400

Soon darling! Thank you for reading c:

YOUR FAN FIC OH MY GOD I DIED ITS AMAZING I LOVE IT!!! WHEN IS PART 15 GOING TO BE UP?

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 23:17:14 -0400

PROBABLY LATER IN THE WEEK. THANK YOU FOR READING <3

imthegirlwiththebread: omg just marry me kjndfjnfdk

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:43:19 -0400

imthegirlwiththebread:

omg just marry me kjndfjnfdk

bitcheslovethejaw: thatsthething-aboutpain: 34/100 Photos of...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:42:09 -0400

bitcheslovethejaw:

thatsthething-aboutpain:

34/100 Photos of Josh Hutcherson

Hot.

JOSH I’M TRYING TO WORK

joshjawporn: The jaw of perfection

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:40:28 -0400

joshjawporn:

The jaw of perfection

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Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:40:04 -0400

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Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:39:38 -0400

You're killing me smalls!!!!!!! All the feels!!! Fucking Erin; poor Josh!!!! Ahkkgdakljjfsjlfa!!!!

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:38:34 -0400

ADFJLKASFLASMFKLA I AM SORRY FOR CAUSING SO MANY FEELS BUT I HAD TO.

expostas: Josh Hutcherson on HQCelebrity

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 00:36:02 -0400

expostas:

Josh Hutcherson on HQCelebrity

With or Without You - Chapter 14

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 00:26:47 -0400

“Alright, now if you’ll bring your car seat in we’ll just show you how to strap her in.” An overly cheery nurse has spent the past two days coaching me and Erin on the practices of parenthood. Between bathing, diaper changing, nursing, bottle feeding, and a plethora of other things…I feel like my brain can’t hold anymore.

“Erin, where’s the car seat?” I ask. She’s sitting on the hospital bed with her legs crossed, staring down at Kennedy who lies in front of her legs.

“I forgot it.” She shrugs.

“How could you forget it? That’s the only thing we need to take the baby home!” I run my hands through my hair, pulling at the ends in frustration. The nurse quietly excuses herself. Kennedy starts to fuss, her tiny fists shaking beside her head. Erin just stares at her.

“Can you get her this time?” Erin monotonously asks. I shuffle Kennedy into my arms. This time? I’ve gotten her the last hundred times! I keep my frustrated comments to myself. I know Erin’s transition into motherhood has been hard on her, but I feel like I have done everything in the past two days.

“It’s okay honey, daddy’s right here.” I coo softly against Kennedy’s ear. Her fussing quiets and eventually ceases while I bounce from leg to leg.

“Are you going to get the car seat? We have to take her home tonight.” Erin continues to stare straight ahead, casually playing with the hem of her sweatpants.

“You’ll have to take care of the baby then..” I say cautiously. Part of me is nervous. Erin hasn’t been alone with the baby since she’s been born.

“I can watch my own fucking kid, Josh.” She snaps. I silently put Kennedy in her arms and grab her keys out of her purse. I don’t want to agitate her any further. Before I leave I take Erin’s face in my hands, rubbing my thumbs against her jaw.

“I love you, okay?” I whisper quietly. She nods, staring up at me through her eyelashes. I lean down and press my lips against hers, earning a soft sigh. When I pull away, I see a glimpse of the old Erin. The one I knew before the baby, the pregnancy, and all the drama. But only for a second, because she slips away into her trance again. A pang of guilt hits me and I think briefly of how this is all my fault, but I push it to the back of my mind and walk out the door.

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The car seat barely fits in the back of my Audi. I mutter a string of curses as I struggle to pull it back out. I try not to get too frustrated as I put it in the trunk. I’ll have to drive all the way back to my apartment to get the Range Rover to bring the baby home in.

Once I get to my house I see a stack of assorted cardboard boxes, some big and some small. I wonder in the back of my head what they are, but I decide to check them out later. I struggle through putting the plastic base of the car seat in the Range Rover, buckling assorted straps and wiggling it to make sure it’s tight. Once I’m satisfied, I jump into the driver’s seat and head back to the hospital. It feels good to be a dad, and I can’t wait to get baby Kennedy home. I check my phone, I’ve been gone quite a while. My foot lays down on the accelerator in an effort to get back to the hospital as quick as possible.

A crabby looking nurse sits behind the counter in the newborn wing of the hospital.

“Name?” She asks, even though I know she’s seen me a dozen time in the past few days.

“Josh Hutcherson, here to pick up Erin and Kennedy Hutcherson.” I inwardly smile at my slip up, giving Erin my last name. It has a nice ring to it.

“Here is your paperwork for the discharge of Kennedy, but Erin has already checked herself out.” She says, shoving a clipboard across the blinding white countertop.

“There must be a mistake, why would she leave without me or the baby?” I ask, scribbling my signature across the extensive paperwork.

“I believe she left a note with the baby, Mr. Hutcherson.” She pulls the clipboard away as I stumble towards the nursery. I different nurse lets me in, and I see a piece of paper folded tightly and left next to baby Kennedy’s head.

Josh,

I’m sorry it has to be like this, but I didn’t have the heart to tell you in person. This motherhood thing isn’t cut out for me, I can’t do it. I don’t feel the love towards her like you do. I can’t even picture myself being a mother. I wanted this at first, but when I realized I didn’t…it was too late. But when I see you with her, I know you two will be just fine. All of her things have been shipped to your house. Please remember I’m sorry, and I love you.

- Erin

I crumple the piece of paper in my fist, a stray tear falling down my cheek. She’d been planning this. She never wanted to be a mother. But what I feel the maddest about, deep down in my stomach, is that she doesn’t care about this beautiful thing we created together. This beautiful baby girl who is now staring at me with bright blue eyes from where she lays in the plastic bassinet. I pull her onto my shoulder where I can hear her gurgle softly against my chest.

“Don’t worry baby, daddy’s got you.”

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Wed, 08 Aug 2012 22:50:53 -0400

josh-peeta-i-love-you: prettylittlepeetanerd: Highlighter...

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 22:50:24 -0400

josh-peeta-i-love-you:

prettylittlepeetanerd:

Highlighter Pants!! I own this!

it matches his hair